Zivrezcara

It's past midterms and we are into the 10th week (I think) of the fall semester here at MCAD. I haven't really posted here at all, but I have been quite a bit more active on my tumblr page which is here if you'd like to have a look at that. There's some process work there of stuff from this semester, and also random photos of things, like my apartment and studio, that you can check out too.

I only have one semester left after this before I graduation, so things are getting a bit stressful while starting to prepare for my senior show (which will be fabulous btw). I'm going to be dealing with some personal content in the show, and therefore increasing that in my work leading up to it. Pretty scary, I know, but it's something I need to do before I leave school. Just get everything out in the open and move on which my life and be a bright, fresh-faced graduate without any baggage.

I feel like in this semester I really need to find my primary "style" of working. So, if anyone can share any advice on that front, it would be much appreciated. I feel like I'm getting close though, closer than I've ever been, so not all hope is lost. In general, I feel that I'm getting positive feedback with what I'm working on.... but it's not been all that helpful so far. This is the home stretch so I really need to push myself.

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Also, some of you might know, I'm a contractor/intern at Target Corporation right now. I'm working with the pattern design team for Women's RTW clothing... and recently they've moved me on to simple pattern design which is pretty exciting. I can't really talk about anything that's going on at work (oh so secretive, haha), but it's been really great so far. It could potentially lead to a permanent job offer... but even if it doesn't, I now have great references and a sweet "adult" job on my resume. Take that world!

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As for fun work... I'm not doing that so much recently, but I'd like to be. I'm just so tired all the time with working 20 hours at Target and then also being a full time student. Between the hours of 8-6 everyday I'm physically somewhere for class or work.... and that doesn't even include my homework time which amounts to quite a bit each week. I am going to do a little thing for Halloween this year, I've decided it... even if I'm busy. SO, if anyone has an idea or request for that, I'll be happy to oblige.

Cheers for now, friends.

So, I have precisely 2 weeks and 2 days left here in Florence, in Europe, and everything D:

I think I'm going to freak out and die at this point... next to nothing is finished and there's so much to do! I want to go home and don't at the same time... it's all a bit much. That and I still need to find out my whole job situation when I return to the States.. either way I have a place to live for free either at an apartment in the 'burbs or back at my parents' house, which is good. Ugh, and I need to find an internship for the coming fall.... which is proving to be much more difficult that I thought.

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It's so weird to think, that a year from now I will be graduating.

I've been in school forever, and it's all wrapping up so fast. I'm not sure what to make of it all... I somehow felt that I would be at a different place in my life now, but life has ended and begun anew here in Florence. Everything I left 'home' with is no longer waiting for me when I return, only MCAD.

It's a weird sort of feeling, and I expected to be upset, but really, I'm just going to be glad to get back. I have strengthened so many of my friendships, broke off other ones, tolerated silly people living with me, and became a new person.

I feel good, and anxious.... hmm.

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Wrapping up 1,2,3,4... 5 projects... and all but one is a series. After that, I will clean them up back home (when I have a scanner again, YAY) and then move on to bigger and better things.

Summer Stuff:
Job, Work, Death
New Website
MCAD Art Sale
Possible selling art opportunity
Hanging out with friends
Find an apartment for the school year
Find a Fall 2012 internship
Prepare for Summer 2013 internship (my dream right now, ssh it's a secret)
Lots of other stuff too

Wish me luck!

Florence has this way of sucking you out of reality and placing you somewhere that's free of responsibility and time management. I need to get back on art and start not being mad at myself for being here. But I've made so many awesome friends in my language course, so I'll blame them for me wanting to hang out with them

I'm going to get all of the ideas currently out of my head and start the new ones. I have 15 projects I'm currently musing around (cuz I'm that crazy) and my goal is to complete 8 of them by March 15th since that is when I start traveling.... and the rest are long term projects and not single illustrations.

It might seem like a lot... but I need to make up for lost time. I feel so empty not living at school and making stuff every waking hour. I MISS YOU MCAD!!! _{<<never thought I would say that. ever.}

That all aside I feel: more refreshed, more relaxed, less mad about silly stuff, mad about other stuff, a bit homesick, too hopeful, totally scared of something specific that might change my life, happy and confused since I have more friends here than back home, worried about art, hesitant to apply, lonely, loved, content, still kind of sick, petty, irritated, proud of myself since I've only gotten mad/crazy twice so far, want personal space, like the company..... I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING! almost. in the good way.
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One thing I am sad about are my friends graduating this semester and the fact that they will be gone when I come back. I feel like crap for it, and I wish I were there. I have this crazy ability to get close to people and then move away for my own personal gain.... sorry folks. >.< I got to a point in my life where I had to do things for ME, and not do what everyone else wanted.... being selfish is good for the soul sometimes.

I do feel more human though, I blame having to hug people all the time.... you affectionate Europeans you.

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Kim's Timeline of Crazy/Awesome:

February 27 - March 2: Sketch out all illustrations to mostly final design (longest part for me)

March 3 - 7: Move illustrations to the final paper, ink if necessary

March 8 - 15: Complete the illustrations

Weekend off for roommate's Birthday at the beach.

Go back and do final tweaks and somehow get this shit online!


Oh God! The madness! I need it. I crave it. I love my life. This is what I want to be doing forever. <3

Soo... minor freakout.

I've deleted it and I'm embarrassed for having even posted it. I still feel a bit like that, but not as extreme... I just want things to be easier sometimes, more happy and less angry.

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I've updated quite a bit of my old work from the end of last semester and most of them are very colorful and child friendly. I'm going to (finally) update my dA ID soon and maybe delete some old crap. I'm really trying to get the ball rolling on making some artwork in Florence, but without a studio space and without classes to motivate me I'm finding it very difficult to want to do anything.... especially when there's no space in our apartment so I have everything put away all the time. But I do have some ideas for things that I really want to be working on, subject wise. I just really wish I knew what to do project wise... if that makes sense.
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In other news:
This past week I colored a comic page drawn by Meechartz for my good friend Abt-Nihil's project Heroes Alliance: www.drunkduck.com/Heroes_Allia…
So you should head on over and check it out.

ALSO:
I'm running a blog that I'm not really updating very well, but you can check it out over on tumblr.
rovefirenze.tumblr.com/

AND ALSO:
We will have access to a scanner at some point! This is amazing since Aubree and I are in desperate need of one.

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So, until further updates,
Ciao!

I should be writing a paper..... but I'm not.

Lost of updates and such, seeing as I rarely come here other than to post a tiny bit of art and then not respond to comments in a timely fashion (go ahead and hate me). I rarely sleep anymore and recently stayed up just short of 48 hours straight working on my Junior Review stuff. and this doesn't include the nights before where I was only able to sleep 6 or less. MCAD really tries to kill you I think... maybe it makes the "real world" less scary when you come out on the other side roughed up a little bit.

I've updated a nice handful work that I edited this past week, and uploaded 2 new ones for your viewing pleasure (or not if you find it extremely ugly). I have a bunch of other things that I've been working on, but I'm not sure if I feel really comfortable putting it all up, plus I'd have to have the time to scan the stuff too. I'm thinking about deleting more things from my gallery too, but everything's safe till December.

And now for the exciting bit. I'm going to been studying in FLORENCE for a whole semester: 5 MONTHS. My Italian lessons start next week I think, and then we take an intensive/immersion course for 3 weeks in January once we get there. I get to basically do my own thing... I'm gonna plan out a project and theme to work on and do tons and tons of figure drawing. I'm pretty excited, but yea, oh so tired.... o.o



Also there is a man in an apartment next to mine (which direction, we don't know) who we've dubbed yawning man.... simply because he yawns very loudly and it sounds like the perfect sound bite.